Blogs ‘R’ Alex

hmm, thought i updated my blog recently. ah well. September is just next door, and the first sem of the second year is almost done, yet i feel, with all the stuff i have been learning for the past few months, all the lectures, theorems and numbers, equations and more numbers, little seem to stick permanently on my gray matter. that’s when the thought struck me: what if? what if i turn out to be a nobody? failing my degree, what then? take another different degree? get a mediocre job? even if i managed to pass my uni years doesn’t mean i’ll be blessed with a golden career. Life has this little game of throwing stuff at you when you least expect it. ten years ago, i wanted to be a fireman. 8 years ago, i decided to go for the highest paying job (known to a 10-year old kid) as an accountant. then, in high school, i got practical and decided to go into tourism business or open my own shop. now, here i am, engineer-to-be, martial practitioner, mediocre musician, and volunteer first-aider. thinking back makes me wonder, and worry about what the future holds for me. like a friend said to me, i’m a control-type person. i like to see where i’m going, see every rut in the road, see the entire weave of my life. life doesn’t work that way, i guess. reading from a book recently (a fantasy fiction book, of all books) i learned a few things: “Strength lies in knowing oneself. Once someone does not, he is lost, and becomes a tool for others.” Then, “Endure. By enduring, grow strong.” And, “Patience can sharpen the smallest of efforts into a weapon that can strike the heart of an empire.” That’s what i have to do, to learn, to adapt, to turn obstacles into stepping stones, for that is the purpose of life.